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Fri, 06 Nov 2009 04:16:16 GMT

So today I learned that god really does listen when I pray.

SHAINA!!!!

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 04:44:37 GMT

GET ON AIM AND TALK TO ME!!!!!

FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEEE!!!

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 22:12:38 GMT

So my mom took my car to the dealership today and they told her it was my altanator and then they told her that it isn't covered under my warranty. Well you know what I haven't had the fucking car for even a year mother fuckers so everything should be covered under the damn warranty pricks. So anyways they told her it was going to end up costing like 530 something dollars! So my mom was like fuck that so either Jerry or Kevin one is going to fix it.

Okay anyways angela finally came out last night. It was fun although she was here really late and I feel bad cus we we're all at Taryn's house. Which by the way shaina I am soooooooooo sorry. I started hinting at like midnight that it was getting late but obviously nobody got the hint. sorry. Anyways i have come to the conclusion that i should never get drunk because i'm totally retarded when i'm simply over tired so who needs achoal ill just stay up a few hours later than i want and then ill be crazy and laugh at everything but i won't feel sick the next day! See I'm a genius :-D.

Anyways thats all i got. HEROES COMES ON TONIGHT! I LOVE ZACHARY QUINTO!

AND ELI ROTH

p.s. shaina you need to sign into myspace! Or your e-mail that will then tell you to sign into myspace.

Colleges (click to make bigger)

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 06:34:49 GMT

Then And Now - Koda

Over the years- Ruben

Ups and Downs

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 23:24:33 GMT

Ups - Tonight Glees and Law & Order Svu (with Wentworth Miller) come on. And I got off work early :-(

Downs - I still don't feel great so while I usally watch Glee with shaina and Brandon (well theres only been 3 epsiodes) I think tonight im going to have to stay home and watch it myself cus my throat hurts like hell. I couldn't really yell for kids today at work cus of my throat and Dawn's dumb ass came in and made a big deal about calling a parent cus a girl bumped her lip and it was bleeding a little. And guess what the girls mom didn't even care said it was no big deal when she came in which is exactly what dawn's stupid ass was told would happen.

R.I.P bubby

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 03:45:28 GMT

Today pretty much sucked. I'm gonna miss my ruben so much. It's so weird with out him here

R.I.P ruben i love you buddy

The best you could hoped to be is now just a bitter sweet memory

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 04:48:52 GMT

Okay so school started back which means circle of friends started back. So far everything has gone well with the exception of one mom. This women is a bitch. On the second day she is already complaing to Kelly about the staff. And today she came in and complained to us about her son having to do crafts last year. Her son doesn't like to do crafts and so he doesn't have to do them and saying shit like we can't make him do things because this isn't school and blah blah blah. She is the biggest bitch i really wish she would find her kid a baby sitter so we don't have to deal with her stuck up ass anymore. I guess at the end of last year she came in and asked so "Are you guys going to be back next year" and sue said she said is very rude like she didn't want us to come back. I told sue she should have asked " Is Austin going to have a diffrent mom next year" I can't stand this women. I asked mrs tan to day if we were able to make complaints about the parents to kelly i mean come on they can complain about us so we should be able to complain when one of them is a BITCH!!! there is just no nice way to say it. Well anyway mrs tan talked to Kelly said she was going to talk with dawn and Mr Miller about it and see if theres anything they can do.

Okay lets see. My personal schooling isn't going so great cus i've been slacking but hopefully the library is open and i can get back on that shit. Which reminds me i need to check and see if the library has opened back up.

I have one more weekend left and Dolphin Cove i'm actually working 2 weeks stright which i'm probably going to hat myself for but whatever i need the money i am down to having 5 dollars. Thats really not good. And i need to pay my damn credit card because there is like 37 dollars left on it so i should probably do that.

This post was mostly just to bitch and about that bitchy mom cus there really isn't a lot going on with me.

These videos made me feel better. They are made of Epic Win!

Luke Bryan and Jake Owen do Ice Ice Baby While Jason Michael Caroll laughs.

And then they do Fresh Prince

In the fight between my heart and mind, no one really wins this time.

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 05:43:24 GMT

I hate boys they all suck! That’s just how is is and I’m going to have to accept it. I need to find a boyfriend. Oh wait boys are my problem. Or maybe it’s the lack of. No a boyfriend would probably just bring me more problems and more fucking confusion!!! Or maybe it would distract me from other problems. FUCK MY LIFE! You see what I mean they just cause confusion! Its like one minute you really like someone and then you think your over it but then you think maybe not but your not sure and then theres another guy who you definetly like but you don’t really know him and you know you don’t like him as much as you use to like the guy that you don’t know if you like anymore! You know and a guy having a girlfriend is usally a turn off because they’re unavilable so maybe that’s why you can’t make up your mind or maybe it’s just because things aren’t the way they use to be. And you can sit there and be like your over it and you don’t care but then your letting things that shouldn’t bother you do just that. Like his girlfriend really thinking even for the slightest second that you went behind her back and did something with him. Or finding out there maybe the slightest chance that he doesn’t talk to you like he use to because his girlfriend knew you had feelings for him and had a problem with it! And part of you listens to him and you feel bad about some of the things that are going on with him but on the other hand your like well you’re a fucking dumbass and you shouldn’t have even went there! And you can’t help but laugh when he’s naming off all this stuff that he can’t stand and would never do and hates when other people do it and you know that his girlfriend has done it all in the past with one boyfirend or another and part of you wants to tell him that he must not know her that well but you know it’s best not to get involved. see what i mean conFUCKINGfusing. fuck fuck fuck!!!!!

fml.

p.s. the song has nothing to do with the situation its just a good song

You Got It Bad

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 03:50:16 GMT

I realy fucking do. Like you don't even know. I don't know what it is about this kid but i really like him a lot. Like I've been sick for the last 3 days which means the last 3 days should have sucked but they didn't cus i talked to him so much! Any time this kid text me it just makes my day like thats how fuking bad it is. He text me today to ask me how i was feeling and i got the biggest smile on my face i'm so fucking glad no one was around to see that cus i would have felt like such a newb. lol. I don't think I have ever liked someone this much. I mean i realy liked Nathan but this feels diffrent maybe it's just becuse im older i don't know it's just dude i don't even fucking know what i'm trying to say. Like it's weird becuse it was like all of the sudden too you know. Like i always thought he was kind of cute but i never realy liked him like that but now it's like BOOM! I don't know i think i might have started liking him after i talked to him about my parents and Nathan and all that shit. I think i'm going to go insane!

okay lets talk about something else! lets see i havn't updated this thing in forever! I am still not in collage but thats okay cus I will finish my FASA spring break and that should jump start everything. My shity car has been broken down sense like october. It broke down the day of Dena and Randy's wake. Oh yeah Deana and randy died that was pretty suckish. I got a fucking job with circle of friends that outside of the drama it has been pretty cool. I work with a little girl names Deseray she was a nightmare when i first got there but she does a lot better now. And she is so cute and really smart i'm kind of sad that she won't be there next year. But right now i'm just looking forward to spring break even though it doesn't look like it's going to be nice enough to camp. GAY!!!!! ummm lets see what else...Oh my brother got married again. At least we actually new this chick this time! she's cool her name is Erin and she has a son Dakota's age whoes name is Adien and I just love that kid so glad he's my nephew.

Hahahaha and guess what i've been going to church! I know thats crazy right! But no i really like this church i like the people there. I don't realy feel uncomfortable i think maybe it's because i've met so many of them already i don't know they're just pretty laid back and the preacher guy is kind of funny. Plus it only takes like an hour it's not like were sitting there for 3 hours being bored to death it like you listen for an hour get up talk to some people for a little bit then leave. And I really love Rob and Molly but thats not really suprising i've always thought they were pretty nice but i actually got to talk to them about the bible a little bit on sunday and i don't know I thought having that convo with people like them might be a little akward b/c of the way i look at things but they were really cool about it. And I can't believe all the crap Molly went through as a kid she is just such a happy person that i never would have guessed.

Okay but thats about it. Yep thats right thats about it thats all that has happened in this time i haven't updated! i know my life is lame. so lets sum it up

I really really like this kid. I'm not in school yet but i'm working on it. My car broke down. Dena and Randy died (R.I.P). Got a new job. My brother got married and i now have a new nephew. And I 've been going to church. Yepp thats about it!

Its a feeling that you hold in, you have to let it out, this will burry you if you don't let it go

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 03:48:27 GMT

So lets see. Things have been okay I guess.

Well except that my grandma died. I guess thats kind of shitty. My mom was pretty mad but I don't blame her my grandparents kids really don't care about anything other than their father's money. Thats probably why they kept checking him out of the hospital they were worried that he would get mad that they let my Grandma put him in there and take them out of the will or something. Heather got mad at me because I told her to shut the fuck up when we were in the car and she was like " I can't believe grandma died" she was all like oh your just like dad you don't give a shit balh blah blah. I really wanted to pull her and tell her to walk her ass the rest of the way to work, just because I don't want to dwell on the fact hat she died doesn't mean I don't care! She can be such a bitch sometimes. And I don't know why everyone was so shocked I mean an old lady with health problems died somebody stop the fucking presses thats crazy! (I hope you picked up on the sarcassm their shaina). Not to mention this is what she wanted anyways she was tired of fighting with everyone she pretty much flat out told me grandma she was ready to go.

Okay moving on I called Kelly about working circle of friends well she called me back but I was at work so I called her back but then she was on the phone and so I left another message that was on friday and she still hasn't called me back. Maybe I'm just being impatient but I think I'm going to look around for other jobs too because I'm not sure I even want to work cirlce of friends I mean don't get me wrong it would be cool but I think I might want something where I can get more hours.

okay so today I got my new schdule for work and I'm pretty happy because I don't work sundays anymore wich means my weekends are completely opeaned. I was a little bumbed about it at first becuse tsunday was the day I got the most hours but then I relized that I now work todays in the evening wich gives me more hours than the morning shift so that was cool.
But anyways I worked a double today but it was pretty easy I mostly did a lot of reading so now I'm fianlly past chapter 24 of breaking dawn. I don't know what happen it took me like two days to get to Ch 24 and then I just stoped reading. I would come home from work chill for a little then go next door or something or play with the dog. I don't really know all i know is that I fell behind on my reading a lot. But i'm going to get through it now becuse once I'm done with this book I'm thinking I'm gonna read Generation Kill. I really love the show on HBO. I mean at first I just watched an epsiode because Kellen was in it but then I really got into it it's really funny and intresting and sometimes sad. But I am definetly intrested in reading the book now!

Cpl. Josh Ray Person: "Look at me brad I'm a man now just like you except... I don't look like a fagit and talk all educated" hahahahaha thats cracks me up. Best charcter in the show!

Fair Warning

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 02:21:28 GMT

I haven't updated in a very loooooooooooong time so right now I'm just updating to say that I'm going to be updating sometime soon and it is going to be very very very long. But I'm not doing it right now because I'm to tired. But be prepared becuase when I do there is going to be a lot to read.

I keep triping off thoughts in my head

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:50:28 GMT

So on Saturday we went to see Angela. It went good and me and her got to talk about the whole baby thing and her not telling me and all that. I'm not mad at her I understand she was freaking out. If nothing else I wish she would have told me so I could have tried to help ease some of her nerves about it ya know. But it dosen't matter whats done is done and now I'm just happy for her. She as a very beutiful little gril and as far as I can tell a really good boyfriend. haha when I walked in the door this was how it went

Me: "So Angela got anything you want to tell me."

Anglea: "no......well Jim had a baby!" points at Jim

Me: "haha hows that working out for you Jim?"

she is such a tard but I love her.
She said she really wanted to tell me but she had a lot of shit running through her head so I guess I can't hold that aginst her right.
anyways me and my mom and my sister and Taryn are all going out there on Friday and we're going to spend the day with her and maybe Thressa and Liz too.
I can't wait it should be fun!

OMG BABY PICS!!!!!

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 19:30:31 GMT

Soooooooooo. I found out maybe 3 weeks ago that my cousin/best friend Angela was having a baby and i was like omg thats soooo cool. And then I found out she was already 8 months along and I was like WTF mate how could she not tell me! Seriously she tells me everything or so she says. you know it wouldn't have bothered me so much if she hadn't had gotten made at me for asking if her and Jim got married with out telling anyone but she did because she said she tells me everything and she would tell me something that big. But I think a baby is just as big if not biggger than a wedding and she didn't tell me! Oh well I guess they didn't really tell anyone so I guess I can deal. But anyways that was a few weeks ago and now she had the baby on the 11th and let me tell you she is very cute. but it's really weird. I can't beleive my Angela had a baby!

She is really red in these pictures but keep in mind she is only a few hours old!

I never feared the unexpected Till I found myself in this peculiar place

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 20:11:04 GMT

Remember how I said I was failing at life? well I've got some good news! I am back to suceeding. WOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOO ME!!!!!. I went and got my Driver permit back today and I applied to ECC annnnnnd the F I had in trig is now a C so yeah I'm happy. I'm starting to get on the right track now all thats left is to find me a job. Which reminds me I need to head over to the Park District number and look into that.

EDIT.....
and I just called about a job at the petting zoo.....
wooo hoooo I'm on a roll.

What do you say in a moment like this........................................

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 22:02:49 GMT

Yesterday when I first heard about the NIU shit it didn't seem like that big of a deal at that time no one but the shooter was dead. And then there were 5 more people dead and it was a little more shocking. But today I get to school and one of thoes dead was a girl that went to Dundee Crown and not only that but I had firends that new her. When Taryn told me she use to work at Office Max and was friends with shaina I remmebered being in office max with them and a girl talking to shaina and I knew that was her. Then I get home and find out that she was a good firend of Tony's. Its all just so sad.

You know it's weird when ever I see shit like this on the tv there are always people who are like this is so shocking this type of thing doesn't happen here and I'm like it can happen anywhere but now it's happened here and I'm thinking the same thing as thoes people this doesn't happen here not to us not to people we know. And we live in Carpentersville and go to dundee crown with gang banger and drug addcits.

I FAIL AT LIFE!

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 03:10:48 GMT

okay so short update about how I suck at life. I still haven't finshed filling out my job app so there for I haven't turned it in. Thats bad I really need a job I don't know whats wrong with me or why I keep putting it off. I also still haven't applied for ECC I went to do it yesterday and I got down to the degree shit I was like shit if I do this dumb ass since thing I have to take Chem I hate chem thats the worst class ever!!! But I don't think I have to pick a degree thing now that I think about it so I'll prbably do that this weekend and then I will suck a little less at life maybe.

p.s. HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY REV!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so lame but don't care I love that guy he's so crazy

I'll keep your memory vague So you won't feel bad about me I'll say the things that you said

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 20:01:31 GMT

Sometimes so it reminds me....................
I had to finsih the rest of the chourse other wise it would have bugged me.

Okay so it's been a while as usall. Lets see two weeks ago was kind of shitty. Heath Ledger died and that was a real bummer. He's such an amazing actor and I never really reliazed how good he was untill after he died. I never even noticed how many movies he was in that I like. So since this tradgedy has taken place me and Shaina have been watching a bunch of his movies. We watched The Brothers Grim, 10 things I hate about you (i have seen that movie more in the last two weeks than I have in the last 10 years), Lords Of Dogtown, A knights Tale (which is a very funny movie thanks to me and shaina and I guess the people who made the movie had something to do with the funness after all they did cast Fire Crotch. And Heath Ledger who was good at acting like a dork.)we wached some other stuff too that I'm missing in here. We started the friday after he died which was a shitty day because they had to put charlotte down. :'-(. And because the vet was such a douchecake no one is even sure what was wrong with her. Dumb vet didn't know anyting and he had a stupid accsent.

Okay moving on from the stuff that makes me sad to the stuff that makes me angry. I am really starting to get sick of all the Pete Wentz haters. That poor guy gets so much shit and I don't get why. Okay so he's a bit of a camra whore BIG DEAL GET THE FUCK OVER IT! God knows he could be a lot worse things. It's not like he's some junkine std infested rapist/murder. He doesn't kick puppies or raise them to fight **cough**Michale Vick**cough**. He doesn't kill his girlfriend/wife **cough**OJ Simpson**cough** he doesn't beat people with phones **cough**Russel Crow**cough**(I think that was him anyways) Whatever you get the picture none of these people get as much shit as Pete Wentz. So leave the poor guy alone he's not hurting people or animals or anything else just let hime be. And while I'm on the subject of leaving people be I really think the media needs to back the fuck off of Heath Ledger (who like Pete Wentz has been getting more shit than any of thoes other people ever got and the poor man is dead.) well actually they kind of have in the last few days but I've been thinking that for a while so I said it anyways. I may not have known the guy but from what I've heard about him he sounded like a pretty decent guy so I don't get why the media is so desprate to beleive something diffrent their just a bunch of selfish bastards! Just let him Rest In Peace. And what pisses me off even more is that all these people act like ass holes and then hide behind the 1st admenment to defend the fucked up shit they say. The 1st Admenment was put in place so that people could speak out agianst the government and not have to fear being jailed or killed it WAS NOT PUT IN PLACE SO THAT PEOPLE COULD ACT LIKE JAG WAGS AND MOCK THE DEATH OF OTHER PEOPLE!!!!! I wish people could show a little more respect for not only Heath Ledger but just other living beings as well.

Okay so lets Recap this post
R.I.P Heath Ledger
R.I.P Charlotte
BACK THE FUCK OFF OF PETE WENTZ!
BACK THE FUCK OFF OF HEATH LEDGER!
The 1st admenment was not put in place so people can act like ass holes!

And P.S. I didn't mention the WBC in my post at all but I would just like to state that I am 100% aginst them and their message of Hate that they Preach. And much of that last pice of my entry was aimed at them.

I never viewed my life as something slipping away

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 21:56:02 GMT

Lets see whats new. well as usal nothing. I still haven't done anything for college because I suck. but I have decided to go to ecc and get my basics done there and then maybe transfer. I figure it's going to be a lot cheaper that way. School has been going pretty good we had finals last week and I did pretty good on all of mine I got a 101% in child care cus I'm awesome like that. lol. The only new class I have is computer Concepts and it is by far my favorite. half the time I'm on the damn internet in that class. but it kind of sucks because I can't get on LJ because of the stupid school block things grrrrrrr :-0

Last weekend I went to my aunt sara's house for my grandma's birthday. that was fun taryn and karianne went with us and karianne's dumb ass gave my dad the wrong number and my dad ended up calling her mom and acting retarded lol. And then my cousin Joey wrote my sister a note that she is suppose to put in her locker and I just remembered it so now I have to make sure it gets in her locker.

We only have 3 days of school next week and that is going to be the shit. And then we get Thanksgiving and then our concert wooooo whoooooooooo!

Although I'm still sad that I didn't get to go to the avenged concert :'-(
I guess I'm just going to have to catch them the next time they are in town. There new cd is awesome by the way the only song I don't really like is lost and that one will probablly grow on me eventually.

Me and Shaina found a stray kitten and this last week we finally got it to come to us but now we feel bad cus winter is coming and neither one of us can keep it. SO we are trying to find her a home now but it's not going well. she was staying in shaina's garage and then last night they brought her in the house and let her stay in the cat carrier in there but I don't know how well that went because I haven't talked to shaina today. and I don't know thats pretty much everything.

oh well we named the kitty chad even though its a girl but we didn't know that at the time we just kept assuming it was a dude. lol oh well she is kind of use to chad now so whatever.

days drag on nights last forever and every day it's harder just to keep it together

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 19:16:56 GMT

OMG. I hate school. I hate college. I hate ACT. I hate it all. Sometimes I just really want to give up. say fuck it all I'm living in a box I'm not going to college. Maybe things would just be easier. You know sometimes I feel like I'm just going to break. I still haven't filled out my damn college applications I haven't even gotten my shit for NIU yet. I haven't filled shit out for scholarships. I don't even know if I'm going to be able to handle college. You Know my parents always have so much confidence in me. I just wish I had that confidence in myself. But you know what it doesn't help when I got my mom telling me I have to get a 22 or better on my ACTs and then she doesn't understand why my high blood pressure could be from stress. I love how I only feel like this when I'm at school or alone or something. At least I got my LJ to vent in and my firends who keep my mind off shit or at least make me feel better. Thats what I meant when I said sometimes I love Brian, Shaina becuase I was all stressing out and shit and he made me laugh. But don't worry I love you too you always make me laugh when I feel like hitting the wall. okay I feel better now.

and I'm not spell checking this shit! so bit me!

best movie of the year my ass.

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 01:21:11 GMT

I seen The Brave One with Shaina today. Yeah that movie sucked we should have just went I see Death Sentence agian. Dude the fucking people who killed her fiance just took her dog! wtf! And then she actually went and hunted down the people and took her dog back. I mean I love my dog and all but my dog wouldn't have just went with someone that was trying to kill be and my BF. Thats fucking retarded. And if my dog did that I probably wouldn't want it back b/c its a trader. okay sorry just saying. but yeah the movie was kind of like Death Sentence but a lot less cool.

and wtf kind of name is the brave one?!?!?

okay moving on. so my ankel is still fucked up and I really wish my mom would take me to the doctor so I could have a doctor note for gym class. I mean Mrs. Gutshow said she understood about my doctor situation but I still don't know I just would feel better with a doctors note.

okay I think I'm done for now cus I have nothing else to talk about.

Hours slide and days go by

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 16:22:35 GMT

okay so lets see I've started school back. It's pretty cool bot getting up untill 8. so far my classses have been pretty easy so I'm happy for that but I still rather not be there. So on Firaday I spent the whole day not feeling good and then when I got off teh bus on the way home I fell and twisted my ankel and it is huge and hurts like a bitch. So yeah kids stay in school it will get you a broken ankel. oh well at least it might get me out of gym for a little while.

and I just totaly gave away part of the ending of the 7th Harry Potter book to Alex. lol i thought she read it.

while we feed up all those insecurities you stand in front of me and bite the hand that feeds

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 15:59:40 GMT

Okay so first off Death sentance was awesome. but I have a feeling it's going to be one of thoes Cult Classic type of movies. the acting in it was really good I never really noticed that Garret Hedlund (sp?) was actually a really good actor. I mean yeah he was really good in Four Brothers but I never noticed how good untill I seen other movies he's been in. I didn't even know it was him in Georiga Rule and if I hadn't known before hand that he was in death sentance I never would have guessed he played the bad guy very well. I never really noticed that Kevin Bacon is a pretty good actor too. I've seen him in other movies though I just never really cared I guess.

Today is my last day of summer and it sucks. I'm not ready to go back to school! I HATE SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!!!!!! and it hasn't even started yet. well at least i I don't have to get up untill 8 8:30 this year that'll be pretty sweet.

Oh yeah and Brian came out over the weekend. I guess it was okay. I hung out with him but things weren't the way the use to be. I mean I guess I was okay with him I just didn't act all buddy buddy with him. I'm still kind of mad at him but whatever. and I guess him and Amanda broke up but who knows how long that will last. I think he might have been cheating on her I know that sounds bad and I've never known him to cheat on his girlfriends before but he was acting kind of weird about the girl they went and picked up. so I don't know. oh well not my problem I guess.

ha ha wow I say I guess a lot.

And I want these words to make things right but its the wrongs that make the words come to life

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 20:57:03 GMT

Okay so first things first. I've got to bitch about my fucking sister wearing my damn clothes. you know what you have your own clothes bitch wear them. seriously it's like I run out of clothes to wear every 4 fucking days it seems. yesterday I had to resort to wearing my fucking gym shirt. and what pisses me off the most is that she has been told to stop wearing my clothes by me and my mom and she still doesn't listen. and then I'll wear one of her shirts and she gives me an adittude and is all like why are you wearing my clothes you always yell at me when I wear yours. and I'm like b/c bitch you wore all my clothes and now I have nothing to wear trust me I take no pride in wearing you fucking Good Charolette T-Shirt I much rather wear my FOB one but I haven't see that thing in forever and chances are she has it somewhere. and not only does she wear my clothes but she wears my mom's too and it's like heather who the fuck is wearing your clothes.

Okay next thing. The whole Brian situation. so yeah I have to addmit I'm kind of glad that he has been takling to Taryn because in my mind it's like hahaha you dumb bitch (amanda) you still haven't completely fucked things up. I know it's childish and don't get me wrong I would like to work shit out with Brian but I'd be lieing if i said part of me didn't want to do it just to spite that evil bitch he's dating. god i know that sounds sooooo bad. no but really I want to work shit out with Brian so we can all be cool agian you know but I don't want to keep having to play this game with him. It pisses me off that his girlfirend actually can turn shit around on us cus it's like dude how long have we been firends you should know us better than that but whatever I just know this, I will NEVER NEVER make sure you see that word NEVER N-E-V-E-R pretend to like his girlfirend just to make him happy. fuck that shit I have no problem with telling his ass I don't like her and I don't want to be firends with her. Becuase I already tired being cool with her twice and both times it blew up in MY FACE so fuck that shit.

Okay. so yesterday me, Taryn, Shaina and Josh all went to raceway woods and out side of our concert it was the most fun I have had all summer. Josh kept running off and trying to hide in the trees and shit so he could pop out and scare us and one time when he did it we fallowed him down a steep trial filled with fucking rocks and we almost broke out necks and shaina kept saying yeah you guys maybe we should just turn around and go back the other way. But nooooo Taryn was like no were almost to the bottom and then it will be easier. HAHA WORONG!!! we finally get off all the rocks and shit and we start walking and there was fucking mud everywhere! and the worst part is it was all covered by dead grass and shit so you didn't know where it was and I almost lost my fucking shoe! and I fell twice! and we were all covered in mud. well mostly me and shaina, Taryn and Josh really just had it on there shoes. but anyways we were all covered in mud and we had to get back into josh's car but it serves him right because he's the one that lead us down that stupid fucking path. lol oh well it was fun and gave us something to laugh at.

DEATH SENTANCE TOMMAROW BITCHESSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

COUNT ON ME..................................

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 00:06:03 GMT

okay so I finally finshed my video and here it is.

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we don't care anymore................................

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 19:43:14 GMT

the following is a list of things that piss me off

1. People who type like this.............lyke omgzzz for relz thatzz so HoTTT. I could kill thoes fucking people.

2.People who hurt animals and the stupid ass firends that defend them by saying that what they were doing is a Sport! yeah FUCK YOU!

3. ignorant people

4. Thoes people that come to my door and try to make me go to church. there so damn pushy they can't just take no for an answer. NO MEANS NO.

5. Pincher bugs. I hate thoes damn things.

6. People who think 9/11 was all set up by the government. If you really belive our goverment is that fucked up then your life is in danger and you should get the fuck out of my country.

7. people who have to make others feel like shit just so they can feel better about themselves.

8. Drama queens.

9. people who make shit up just to get attention.

10. people who are two-faced crazy style. I mean everyone is a little two faced but some people just take that shit to a whole diffrent level.

11.people who constantly use the word Emo to describe a person or a form of music. ok people being that EMO basicly means EMOTION then every person and form of music is emo. so SHUT THE FUCK UP

12. Lame ass kids who call other people posers beacuse they can't find a better reason not to like someone.

13.People who constantly feel the need to label themselves and others. now don't get me wrong we all do it sometimes but some fucking people live by these fucking labels they put on themselves and it's stupid.

14. People who think they are better to everyone else.

15 People that lie right to your face.

16. When it rains and I'm trying to camp. wtf.

17. People who don't like the same music as me and constantly feel the need to remind me.

18. People who think they're funny but they're not.

19. people who can't have a serious converstation.

20. and this is the biggest one STUPID PEOPLE PISS ME OFF. and by stupid I mean they lack common sense. I don't care if someone isn't very book smart but god damn have some common sense please.

trust me this list is a too be continued type of thing............